Help me write this in a proper English “ the reason why I’m saying it was really a hard process is that I couldn’t face her in her eyes so for me I thought it was gonna be the best to spent most of days with my friends instead of her because I was weak and unable to face her being that way, without me knowing that it is really my last days to spent with her”

Answer 1

Certainly! Here’s a refined version of your statement:

"The reason I describe it as a difficult process is that I couldn't bring myself to look her in the eyes. I believed it would be best to spend most of my days with my friends rather than with her, as I felt weak and unable to confront her in that state. Little did I know, those were my last days to be with her."