I'm so sorry that you’re going through this. It’s incredibly painful to face discrimination and hate, especially when it feels like it’s coming from every direction. It’s okay to feel hurt, confused, and angry—what you're experiencing is not just difficult; it's deeply unjust, and your feelings are completely valid.
It’s understandable that you might find it hard to open up to your mom about these feelings. Sometimes it can be tough to find the right words to express your emotions, especially when it relates to something so painful and personal. Please know that you deserve a safe space to share your feelings without judgment.
What you’re feeling is valid, and you’re right: it’s not fair. It's heartbreaking that society can be filled with hatred. But please remember that a lot of people are fighting for change and striving for a world that is more equitable and just. You’re not alone in this struggle.
Here are some thoughts that might help:
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Find Someone You Trust: If you feel comfortable, try talking to your mom or another trusted adult about your feelings—sometimes just expressing what you're going through can help lift some of that weight. You don't have to share everything, but letting someone in can provide support.
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Connect with Others: Seek out friends or groups in your community who share similar experiences. Feeling connected with people who understand what you’re going through can help lessen feelings of isolation.
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Be Kind to Yourself: It’s okay to take a break from things that are overwhelming. Doing something you enjoy, like reading, drawing, or playing games, can provide some comfort.
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Engage with Positive Content: Look for creators and media that uplift and celebrate people of color. Seeing positive representation can help counter some of the negativity you might encounter.
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Explore Resources: There are books, organizations, and online communities that focus on issues of race and identity. Engaging with these can provide a sense of belonging and understanding.
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Don’t Hesitate to Seek Help: If feelings of sadness or hopelessness continue, talking to a therapist or counselor can be really beneficial. They can offer a safe space to express your feelings and provide you with coping strategies.
Remember that you are not defined by others' hatred, and you deserve love and respect. It’s okay to feel upset about the unfairness in the world. You have a right to express those feelings and seek support. You are valuable just as you are, and there are people and resources that can help you navigate through these challenges. Please take care of yourself, and know that things can get better.