I sit still like a nun.
My hands fidget as they hide in my palms. I can hear the other women nervously asking each other, "How are you?" and replying, "I’m fine." They hold their notebooks tightly, their lips awkwardly forming sounds as they think of their children. My teacher leans close, gently squeezing my shoulders, just like I do with my sons.
She puts her arms around me, warm like a shawl, and lifts my left arm to the cold paper.
“Don’t let it slip away,” she reminds me.
Then she opens my right hand, holding a pen, like I gently open my stubborn grandchild’s lips. My hand cramps around the thin pen. “Let it breathe,” she says. She understands my struggle to express myself, but she encourages me. I press the pen into the paper and write my name, over and over at night until my hand hurts, I keep writing my name, my name.