In Chapter 5 of "Lord of the Flies," Ralph reflects on the challenges and responsibilities of being chief. He grapples with feelings of inadequacy and frustration as he realizes that maintaining order and focus among the boys is more difficult than he initially anticipated. Ralph understands that leadership requires not just authority but also the ability to inspire and maintain people's attention and respect.
Ralph's self-doubt grows as he compares himself to others, particularly Jack, who is more charismatic and assertive. He questions his own capabilities and whether he is truly fit to lead the group. At this point, Ralph recognizes that being chief is not just about holding a position but also about effectively managing relationships and emotions among the boys—something he feels is challenging for him.
Overall, Ralph concludes that while he has the title of chief, the skills and qualities necessary for effective leadership are not as easily attainable as he had hoped. This realization highlights his internal struggle and foreshadows the eventual conflicts that arise in the group as different leadership styles clash.