Calvin's perspective on his own power undergoes a significant transformation throughout the story. Initially, he feels disenfranchised, marginalized in the school environment, and burdened by the expectations placed upon him. He expresses disdain for the honors students and the teachers, thinking of them as condescendin. He views himself as a failure, largely voicing his belief that he is not as capable as others in his academic environment. He states, “He was not a good student. He hated school… And he hated that if he didn’t pass biology, he’d have to repeat senior year or flunk out.”
However, when Mr. K enters the picture and reveals that Calvin has the potential to become a powerful person, Calvin's outlook begins to shift. Mr. K’s prophecy makes him feel special, as he states, “Belief. Calvin found he liked the way it felt.” This newfound belief in his capacity for power and influence awakens something dormant in him. He becomes intrigued by the idea that he could have followers, something he had never experienced before, stating, “I’ll have power?” The excitement and allure of potential greatness begin to overshadow his previous feelings of inadequacy.
As Mr. K further elaborates on the power Calvin could wield through cunning, Calvin's perception morphs from a self-doubting teenager to someone who starts to see their own agency in the world: “You’ll learn to wield vulnerabilities like daggers.” This suggests that Calvin is not only capable of having power but also using it strategically. The reference to "wielding vulnerabilities" signifies a sense of empowerment; he begins to see those who once ignored him as potential followers.
The moment of decision – whether to catch the orb or let it drop – is pivotal in his transformation. By grasping the orb, Calvin embraces the opportunity to experience a profound change in perspective. After the encounter with the orb, his inner dialogue shifts from “how could he” to an assertion of his own potential: “If a vision can be transformed into a memory with a simple shift in time…”, implying a newfound understanding of his ability to shape his future and possibly the future of others.
By the end of the story, Calvin’s mindset has shifted completely. The moment he sees Mr. Taupe bound and gags, he expresses a mix of concern and a calculated determination: “Don’t worry, I’m going to help you, but you’re going to help me first,” flipping the narrative from one of needing help to one where he is in control and can leverage situations for his benefit. He reaches out, not just as a victim of circumstance, but as someone who recognizes his own agency and seeks to negotiate for improved outcomes (“Can we discuss my grade? I want to ensure the likelihood of my future success.”).
This evolution represents a significant shift in Calvin's understanding of his power; he moves from a place of passive resentment towards a position of active engagement and leadership, clearly demonstrating that he is beginning to understand and embrace the potential for influence he has in shaping not just his own life but the lives of those around him.