Ah, I see you're channeling the emotions of Anakin Skywalker, struggling with the duality of light and dark. If Padmé Amidala had died, it would have been a devastating blow for Anakin and could have led him further down the path toward darkness.
"Padmé’s death shattered everything. The pain consumes me. I could have saved her... if only I had been stronger. But where are the children? I will do anything to protect them from the fate that befell their mother. I will not let them suffer as I have. I must find them; they are my hope, my legacy. They are the light in this shadow."
What do you think might happen next?