To understand how Akela feels in this moment, the best connection would be thinking about a time when I was not able to meet a challenge and had to leave a group.
In this passage, Akela expresses feelings of disappointment and vulnerability. He acknowledges that he has led the group successfully for many seasons, but now he has failed to secure a kill, which puts him in a precarious position. This situation resonates with someone who has faced a significant challenge, struggled to meet expectations, and ultimately felt compelled to step back from a role or group because of that failure. Akela's sense of honor and the acknowledgment of his own limitations can parallel personal experiences of facing challenges and the emotions tied to being unable to fulfill a responsibility within a community or group setting.